this week has been insane! i got to take my first senior skip day... let me tell you its amazing. just a day to throw my feet back and relax. but i also took it because i got to go to busch gardens with my best friend and his family and we didnt get back until late Sunday night. Let me just tell you it was my first time being on a rollercoaster since elementary school. you know when people say there stomach was in there mouth... after something scary. not only was i petrified and could barely walk after apollos chariet, i also didnt even think i had a stomach.. going down that 90 degree drop i literally thought i was going to die. lololololol but i had such an amzing time. and got the crap scared out of me thanks to hallow-sceam... thanks to it i can safely say i have slept with all my lights on every night. hahahaha. i also got to see my sweet va beach and chesapeake friends and it was just so great to just hang out with them.
Today was a great day. its funny for the past two days i have just been hit with the transition between being confronted with my flaws, and seeing how i can just give them up to the Lord and go into a time of thanksgiving. I am just so greatful for this. because these past few weeks have been hard. it has broke down many walls in my own heart that i didnt even know were up. I realized how self centered, and prideful i am and it has just been really cool to see how the Lord takes my flaws and turns them into His masterpiece.
Today i got an amazing opportunity to hang out with one of my new special needs friends from school that is in graphics while i am in photo. He is awesome, today we got to go take pictures around the school for his graphics project. it was the first time he has ever held a camera and got to take the pictures he wanted to take. at first he took a picture here and there and then all of a sudden it was click click click click click. He started laughing and just pointing the camera at whatever he wanted and just clicked away. The whole time he had the biggest grin on his face, and was having the greatest time ever. He started running up and down the hallways and his aide kept saying i have never seen him so happy. i had an amazing time just seeing how happy taking pictures made Shaheem. in this i saw the Lord. i saw the Lord in Him and giving him joy alot of high school students dont have these days. Shaheem is full of life. and its amazing.
later tonight i got to sit and talk with three of my closest friends about real stuff. about following Christ and how our hearts feel. I am so fortuneate to have this every wednesday night. we have been meeting since the end of my sophomore year and i just cant even tell you how much the Lord has worked through our own hearts, and in each others lives. as i sit here and write this my heart just swells because i am just so blessed to have them in my life keeping me on track and pursuing me in the Lord.
tonight we talked about the Kingdom of Heaven and what it looks like to us.
I cannot wait to get to the Kingdom. One time becs was talking and she was saying that once we get to heaven every kid that we have walked through life with, every kid that we have felt called to, every kid that we loved on for Christ, we will get to wrap our arms around them and bring them home. the kingdom to me is going to be with all my closest friends, all the kids that i have walked throuh life with, my family, everyone sitting at this table (kind of like that classic movie huge thanksgiving table like where the whole family is there eating and is so happy to be with each other you know?) eating dinner with the Lord. I imagine that were going to get to sit there with our Father and have no more pain, were going to have no more fear, and we are just going to have extreme joy, and life, and love. Its going to be the best. i imagine that the Lord is going to come up to me and were going to finally get to be together. when i think of heaven i think of the Lord my dad and i just going to get to go the the field and hit some softballs around. i just cant even wait.
i get chills just thinking about it. but the Kingdom doesnt have to wait. the Kingdom is here now. Jesus is already here. He is living in us and the Kingdom is here. we no longer have to hold back, we no long have to hide because Christ is here. high school is a dark place but Christ is there. the kingdom is there. Christ goes with us to our jobs, our homes, our colleges... everywhere he is there. The kingdom is there. dont just wait for the kingdom because it is right infront of us. live like you are living in the kindom everyday. just like my friend shaheem, he found it. i believe with all my heart that Shaheem has found it. he has found where there is life.
have you?
I really like reading your blogs Hailey, one day I'll find myself sitting down somewhere and reading them with joy and a smile on my face. On a side note you're a really cool friend and I think we should hangout sometime like seriously haha maybe I can teach you parkour and what not ^__^, btw this is Milk if you haven't notice already haha. But anyway keep up the blog. See you later :)
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