Hi, I’m Alyssa, one of
Hailey’s friends from Work Crew. She asked me a while ago to write something
for her blog and sadly I thought it was a joke. But she was serious and said
that she felt that I had something to say. Hmmm…what? I didn’t even know I had
something to say, but I trust her so I thought about it, and thought about it,
and thought about it some more. I then prayed a little, but just wasn’t feeling
the Lord talking to me, telling me what I needed to say. So honestly, I just
kept putting it off until I would hopefully feel Him telling me what to write.
I kept questioning Him when that moment will be. When will I be told what to
do?
I suppose that that is
something I struggle with constantly, not feeling the Lord’s presence and not
hearing His advice to me. All through high school I waited and waited for His
response to my questions. I was stubborn and I wanted to challenge Him and
force Him to answer, because that what the Lord does, He answers prayers right?
So of course I was not getting what I wanted. Even today I struggle with that.
I am always finding a way to challenge God to answer me and to get what I want.
These I call my ruts. When I wasn’t getting what I asked for from God I would
go in to a rut. These ruts caused my view of God to be skewed and
single-blinded. I continually relapsed into these when I felt the Lord drifting
further and further away from me. And I wanted everything to put me back right
next to Him; however I wanted God to do it for me.
But thankfully the Lord
does answer prayers and thankfully again, he does on his own time. I was reading my bible when I came across
these verses that hit me hard:
Proverbs 3:5-12
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will
bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.
Honor the Lord with all your wealth, with the firstfruits of all your
crops; then your barns will be filled to overflowing, and your vats will brim
over with new wine.
My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline and do not resent his
rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he
delights in.”
This right here is all I
need! But it requires me to work at it. A relationship isn’t only one person
it’s two! Two need to work at it to improve it, fix it, and perfect it. I
despised the Lord’s discipline when I should have been accepting it and acting
on it. He’s telling me that he challenges and disciplines me because he loves
me. He wants me to grow closer to him through my weaknesses. So now whenever I
feel as though I am drifting away from the Father, I just need to remember that
He loves me and is not drifting away but He is giving me the opportunity to get
closer to Him.
If you ever feel as
though you are not as close to God as you should be or that you are drifting
away from Him, remember that that is your opportunity to join Him and to better
your relationship with Him. But you have to first recognize that you are not a
part of that relationship and that you need to do something about it. So are
you ready to get closer to God or do you need to start that relationship? I am
proof that he does answer those prays because not only did the Lord help me
find what I needed to say but he helped me fix something in my heart. He helped
to rid me of these ruts that prevented me from growing closer the Him.
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